Well, I did what I thought I needed to, and apologized to myself on your behalf. It helped, it really helped to put all of that out on the table. Even if you never heard it, even if it didn't come from you. It was therapeutic, it was good. It helped. I realized that in my attempt to find closure, I had overlooked the emotions and feelings you have. It was a moment of clarity that led me to pen down this sincere apology to you because you deserve one too. To my friend, I'm sorry. I'm so sorry for not living up to the expectations you may have had of me. I apologize for idealizing a version of our friendship that ultimately overshadowed its reality. I'm sorry for not making more effort to include you in my life, my small-town life with my small-town moments. And I'm so sorry for being distant and preoccupied with my business. I acknowledge my faults – I'm sorry I became irritated when you attempted to help, I'm sorry for speaking in a condescending town when I'd become upset, and I'm sorry I failed to communicate and enforce clear boundaries, causing unneeded arguments and friction. I'm sorry for expecting more from you without expressing it, and for any disappointment or rudeness I may have displayed. It hurts me to know that my actions have hurt you. I apologize if my actions or lack of action has jeopardized our friendship. I understand that you may never see this apology, but know that it comes from a place of genuine remorse. As I reminisce on our relationship, I realize that perhaps we both had delusions about each other. It's a difficult truth to accept, but sometimes friendships don't withstand the test of time. Despite the inflicted distress and moments I regret, I am beyond grateful for the memories we shared. Every moment, whether joyful or disheartening, has shaped our journey together. So here's to acknowledging mistakes, seeking forgiveness, and cherishing the moments that made our friendship unique. Though our routes may diverge, I will always treasure the bond we once shared.
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